"Our relationship couldn’t continue to balance, as it did, on the point of a knife. We would fall off one edge or the other, depending entirely on his decision, or his instincts. My decision was made, made before I’d ever consciously chosen, and I was committed to seeing it through. Because there was nothing more terrifying to me, more excruciating, than the thought of turning away from him. It was an impossibility."

*Quoted from Bella Swan, Stephenie Meyer's Twilight.

I can't really point out how I can relate to this but I am sure that this is true for me and it is what has been happening. I can't say more because I don't know/understand a single thing about everything right now, including my own self and feelings.

Yes. I am a wreck.