"Until the worst actually happened, I wouldn't listen to anybody telling me otherwise. I could always find an excuse."

 -TVD S05E02

I think it wasn't normal for me. The worst had happened. I kept finding excuses even if I didn't want to. Even if I only forced myself to find those excuses.

Maybe I'm just too good a person that I keep on giving people the benefit of the doubt even if they didn't deserve it.

I don't exactly know what that meant but I do know I didn't want any of those anymore. Not anymore. Since the worst happened.